Holy Week Experience

I’m not sure if some of you knew what happened to me last year, I had miscarriage due to the myoma that triggered. Last March I graduated from my Master’s Degree then elebrated my birthday when I felt something inside of me. My myoma became bigger, so I went to the doctor last March 29 for check up. There and then, I knew that I was 6 weeks pregnant. I didn’t feel anything or any morning sickness at all. Everyone in the family was so glad and excited especially hubby and my 2 sons as well as the cousins and friends so with our church family. After knowing it the next week my tummy became big with unusual size. It seems that the baby was already 5 months old. I even was surprised at the size of my tummy and even some of the church members while looking at me. They even were asking if it’s only 2 months since it’s really big.

When other friends looked at me, they would utter a word saying “that’s a baby girl” because I look pretty with a clean face though. I just smiled at them and praying for a girl of course. Most of our friends who would look at me would say the same thing. But something happened again.

Last Friday, (Good Friday) we had our “7 sayings.”We hurriedly went to the church after visiting our mentor who just came back from 2 years of studying and learning Mongolian language and culture. At 1pm our service started. Many visitors came and we (the choir) rendered 2 songs. Around 4 pm when we decided to go home. We sent our sister and her family back home and we visited our parents as well who are staying with them at the moment because our father is already bedridden. We prepared for dinner and we’re glad to buy something on the way since almost all of the small and big stores were closed. After dinner, we went back to the church because our teenager was still there with the cousins preparing for the Youth Camp the next 2 days.

Then we fetched our nephew in the bus terminal at 9pm. We went back home and waited for our teenager and some youth to stay in our house for the night. There were 9 of them. They slept late so I waited for them to be asleep around 11 pm. I guess, I was so tired that day. So I woke up late while all of them went out for jogging. When I woke up they were already home so I hurriedly cook something for them.

At 9am, I felt something coming out of me. I didn’t bother but after 10 minutes I went inside the toilet and found myself with a spot of blood. I then told my sister who was around and told me to rest. I then sent a message to my OB-Gyne and gave me something to take to save the baby.

Yesterday, I went to my doctor for check up. She could not decide nor give me some medications unless she finds the result of the ultrasound. I then went for ultrasound – we are blessed because we have a doctor for ultrasound in our church. We asked her help, and after lunch she did the ultrasound. It took an hour for me to stay inside the room with hubby. She did not speak during that span because she didn’t want to say anything unless she is sure of the result. Then, after an hour of waiting, she declared that the baby has no heartbeat. I was shocked because during my 1st miscarriage I was bleeding as if I was giving birth and this time there was only small blood spots but there was no heartbeat. The first time we knew that we have a baby last month we could still see the heartbeat because she showed it to us during her actual ultrasound while I was lying. But yesterday, heartbeat was nowhere to be found. She told us that supposedly for 10 weeks now, the head of the baby and the hands were already formed but in the case of our baby, it was not grown and no more heartbeat. When I went back to my OB-Gyne, I was shocked when she told me that I need an urgent operation this week to avoid complications and poisoning since the fetus is still there inside. I need an urgent operation known as “Hysterectomy.”To take all, the myoma, the fetus and the 2 ovaries and to make sure that myoma won’t come back and find its way to stay again.

We need to prepare 45,000 Php in just 5days. We believe the Lord is able to provide. We just need to claim it and trust the Lord in everything. God is good and God is great.